Paraphrased from Melody Beattie's "The Language of Letting Go"
Higher Power's will most often happens in spite of me, not because of me.
I may try to second guess what Higher Power has in mind for me, looking, searching, hyper vigilant to seek Higher Power's will as though it were a buried treasure, hidden beyond my reach. If I find it, I win the prize. But if I'm not careful, I miss out.
That's not how it works.
I may believe that I have to walk on eggshells, saying, thinking, and feeling the right thing, while forcing myself somehow to be in the right place at the right time to find Higher Power's will. But that's not true.
Higher Power's will for me is not hidden like a buried treasure. I do not have to control or force it . I do not have to walk on eggshells in order to have it happen.
It is right here inside and around me. It is happening right now. Sometimes, it is quiet and uneventful and includes the daily disciplines of responsibility and learning to take care of myself. Sometimes, it is healing me when I'm in circumstances that trigger old grieving and unfinished business.
Sometimes, it is grand.
I do have a part. I have responsibilities, including caring for myself. But I do not have to control Higher Power's will for me. I am being taken care of. I am protected. And the Power caring for and protecting me loves me very much.
If it is a quiet day, trust the stillness. If it is a day of action, trust the activity. If it is time to wait, trust the pause. If it is time to receive that which I have been waiting for, trust that it will happen clearly and with power, and receive the gift in joy.
I will trust that Higher Power's will is happening as it needs to in my life. I will not make myself anxious and upset by searching vigorously for Higher Power's will, taking unnecessary actions to control the course of my destiny or wondering if Higher Power's will has passed me by and I have missed it.
No comments:
Post a Comment